joy must then be like freedom
such as to carelessly shout
though I've never seen such need to use such ploy
for even now as I knock to enter
all I really want is to be let out
there is no stopping the flood of cold emptiness
into the soul should it choose to enter
yet out of my for thought I am able to grasp hold of
and withdraw a tiny painful splinter
drawing my soul out of its newly released deep freeze
while simultaneously shutting my feeling of disquiet
and conflict up for the winter
Lord help me for right now would be so blessed
the sending of such said storm
taking me out of my unfashionable dilemma that's all
too intense and keeping me from further being torn
with just one more chance placed politely in my pocket
my self esteem I readjust and carefully adorn
and I personally promise God and myself that I will
never again doubt the question as to why I was born
for we have a contract
a written agreement
that was delivered signed and sworn..........
(written Jan 26,1992 am).