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today I experienced one of the lowest points in my life

please forgive me for this emotional mess I make as I

attempt to remove all residue of my dire despair from

the duel edge of the knife

what weapons do I have left at my disposal still fresh

in store

I don't expect too much from myself

just a little more

maybe a small gap opening up to what could be a good

opportunity or once in a life time chance

something so great of which for my life this unexplainable

occurrence would somehow enhance

hope can become so dark, cloudy and vague

it must seem so unbecoming in the eyes of God when

a desperate soul reduces himself to have to beg

I called out to misfortune but apparently not by her

rightful name

I looked away for a mere instant and in her place

harsh reality came

after that I tried to talk myself down from this ledge

I walked bordering on shame

yet unsurprisingly to me when my feet were back down

on the ground everything was back to being the same

except this time I had on my side a new friend to

step up to aid me in my defense

and her name was oddly enough

Deep Self Confidence................

( written Jan 22,1992 am)