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a loss of face in the confident presence of pride

I entrusted everything to him

but my deepest darkest desperation's I painfully

tried to hide

this sickness of the soul I could never permit

to be fully breached

the true lost me that I so successfully hid

he was never allowed the chance to reach

I now fear facing this side of myself

as I slip slowly into such levels of unbearable

heart break

its so hard having to hurt yourself for the protection

of another' s sake

but the necessity for such a selfless good deed is

indeed needed in any event

I view it as an especially personal sad but generous

present

no matter how much of my slaughtered self in the

process needs to be spent

I was offered the trip of a lover's life time so I

took it and I went

I still believe it all was worth it

in the end every ego along the way must sustain

at least one dent

and in hindsight I can say I came out of it all not

too terribly twisted and bent...........

( written Jan 17,1992 pm)