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exact grievances are difficult
to number and list
I'll reprimand myself alone later
if with my original guess I missed
pleasure derived from pain
adds purpose to a plot
where there used to be only a twist
I can shake from my soul all the usual kinks
with a derisive flick of the wrist
being completely alone
was never as I wanted,
intended or agreed
something as simple as helping a friend
fulfills in my soul a previously unmentioned need
I work and work for an outcome I can't seem to get
for every freedom I experience there's another
restriction to be met
I produce a subtle form of consciousness leaked
from what must be a higher level of accessibility
virtual vision of what I've so far accomplished
boggles logic over the versatility of my methodical
mental agility
mentally, I suppose you could say I'm somewhat a
bit of a thrill seeker
I get much enjoyment from delving deep into the
darkest side of the mind where confidence and pride
become much more complex and bleaker
havoc is truly an old and dear friend
I'll never forget how it helped me through a period
of great grief with its incessant and wicked
mayhem
I ran my many emotional obstacles and dove under
every nearby rock
any verbal blow to the ego I could masterfully
side step or block
but now with a poet's adopted attitude
I've managed to build back up my secret stock
and ah at last my bruised ambitions
I am able to afford to take them out of hock....
( written July 16,1991 pm)