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away

you've gone

though you argue not so!

if this is true

then tell me where are you

so quick you are

to claim work

but no true effort

makes you

when work is indeed done

a pm so close to bed time

I do not count

and your free weekends

it seems I am not allowed

how easy I am to get rid of

you go with a promise to chat later

but no you do I then later see

I am not bitter

just perplexed

lonely for you

who use to care

so sweetly once

(or so I thought)

for me

I wish I knew

what you've done with him

but I'm damned forever

I guess instead

to be pushed away

the words I miss you

aren't accurate anymore

now I just miss the you who

loved me enough once

to make a little time for me

I never thought the words

I LOVE YOU !! could hurt so much

but they do

especially when you type them up

to placate my hurt

and your own feelings of guilt

knowing full well there's no real

room for me in your life

I'm back at square one

just another nobody chatter

tell me did your love for me change

or did I unknowingly imagine it all

these months as something more significant

I wish I could find that lovely funny warm

John again who drew so close to me in early

summer

but I guess that would be pointless

because the John who chats with me now

makes me believe he never even existed

so each night I pray

from this frigid feeling of despair

let insight come

and let this distorted image of you

fade away

and let the John I remember still be

there in his place

the dear man who only seemed to once

want just to be a little closer to me..........

(written Nov. 10, 2000 1245am)