I feel so empty
and a little more than confused
the funny thing is
I haven't even been used
I've been left dangling on a string
hung out on the line
left out in the rain
and now I can't do a damn thing
he's a real bastard sometimes
or maybe he's just being a bastard
to get rid of me
He's having a real big laugh
and an even bigger ego trip
He knows he's the only one I see
every love song has his name in it
whether it rhymes or not
I want to stop loving him but I simply
can not do it
oh my dear sweet lord I ache so inside
the rules he has applied
to them I can not abide
being in love is no damn fun
especially when the one you're in love with
thinks of you as nil to none
he's so damn hard and omnipotent
he demands that I eat
but I say no defeat
I'm depressed so this has to be the worst poem
I have ever wrote
I'm standing in a self made blizzard without
a coat
maybe I should just go away
be by myself
think and maybe just maybe
learn a little lesson in reality.......
( written Oct 25,1987)