I refuse to let myself drown in the blood of another 's
foolish beliefs
yet, I can't allow myself to get bogged down by the
ghost of fading, former griefs
there is still an untapped violence inside me that
could scare death itself into cooperating
home truths are wonderful contractors for the building
of humanity but to the generous spirit they can be
quite deflating
the generous stretch of ground I have covered so far
remains frozen beneath my much too tired feet
at my own game I only have myself left in which to take
on and beat
and only then will I be back on top
feeling fully alive and complete
hopefully this painful process I won't have to force
myself ever again to repeat
if I succeed over my greedy self through such an
untested form of skill
every dream and nightmare that ever lived in my soul
I'll simultaneously fulfill..............
( written March 28,1992 pm)