OATH AND AMBIANCE

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JOURNAL#3

there is a lot to be said about artifices and
neutrality
especially in such an age where ignorance
is bound tightly in dying morality
we each come face to face almost everyday
with our own awareness and mortality
it could all be over for one and all in a breath
short of the count of three
sometimes the very obvious is the hardest of
all to see
I need the time and the chance to bring myself
back in line with my own insight
I find it very difficult anymore
to recognize day as day and night as night
and who else has experienced this pattern of plight
face down in uncertainty I have soiled my soul
with distrust
almost all of it but not quite
despite my archaic attitude I forge on deep into
dangerous waters marked taboo
looking to pin point the precise emotions and
acceptable levels I need for my current mood
for you, wise reader, I dance about verbally
so to woo
and at last, with these carefully fashioned lines
in tow
I have paid back to myself what was due
now, to no one but maybe myself I no longer owe
I have a fear all have come full circle for not
just one but two..........
(written May 12,1991 in the pm)

Author's Notes/Comments: 

a little too much deep over thinking perhaps!

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