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If I lost you

I'd wish to go insane

how profoundly

such thoughts

can bruise themselves

as they are tossed around

in vain

and yet I know

I wouldn't

for the mind is just too strong

logic would prevail

to out wit the defeatist's moment

and eventually love would reassert

itself

so to live on

how contorting though it would be

the rippling process of

breaking free

months to years of

self inflicting contemplation

a slow painful remedy

for an inconceivable situation

its strangely surreal

almost poignant

to even brush up against

its as if I've felt this before

to stand at such envisioned

priapus

thinking about a unique bridge

thats not even built yet

but still

its one I just may someday be

required to cross

with emotions held high

scrutinized so minutely for

impurities

the long haunted eyes

stolen by such devastating loss

ever learning to live with the constant

starvation they feel

for want of just another taste of my so

beloved you

so very sad but true

yes

I can feel the encasing loss even now

that one day will come

but its the legacy and comfort of

our children that will hold and heal me

to keep me going

especially if

its in the face of our so longed for son

my very own Satya

of my flesh

alas

reborn...........

(written Feb. 3, 2002 310am)