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So this isn't a poem but its a place of refuge for me. I know in everyones life things will go wrong and things will get better, but when will they get better? Its been 8 long months and still he's not here with me. Its been over a year and daddy still is gone. Its been 11 months and zachary i think still hates me. Its only been 4 weeks and my nephew's looking cuter. My telephone only rings for mom, and letts come for nic. My minds eyes see clearly, but my heart is so blurred. If hearts could literally break, mine would have died by now. A kiss on the cheek would be nice, but the one guy i love. Maybe a hug would do nicely if someone bothered to ask me. What if i had been born into a loving family that could have stayed together and lived happily ever after. It doesn't happen anymore, the lives of those around me are falling apart. It there wasn't such thing as music i dont know what i would do. I really like the thought of dancing right now. I had a dougnut today and it was good. I miss holding hands, cuddling, and being able to just sit and talk wiht a guy who liked me for me not becuase of other reasons (it can't be for my butt or um yeah cuz well never mind) If i could just take an eraser and wipe away my pain i'd be empty...becuase pain is all i know. When a friend of 5 years moves away and leaves you hangin what do you do? What do you do when the one thing you let go was the onlyt hing you ever truely loved, and then when they took you back, they let you go? If your hearts desire is something you know you can  have, and they just dont know they can be yours..take them away. If pictures didn't capture lifes silly moments, what would? I really like the idea of just sitting and staring into someones nice eyes. I dont look at people when i talk to them so it would be hard to actually just stare at someone. I wouldn't mind someone holding me right now, who cares if its 1am? i dont. Sketches are just the hands memories. Love is just a game which others are better at playing at then others. What do you do when the one person you love, doesn't love you back? You let them go, and if they want to come back to you they will..and if they dont come back then it wasn't meant to be. I know, cuz he didn't ever come back, iw ent back to him...and then well he left me again. "Forever i'll love you", was the best line i've ever heard said to me. Something happened though. Crayons are lifes way of saying, you can still have fun when your old. If i could make life 150 lines long i would do it, but somethings aren't possible...even falling out of love. Sunrises and Sunsets the only difference is that ones int he morning and ones at night. Same colors and everything, just different places int he sky. Did someone ever tell you that you can wish upon stars? I tried that and once my dream came true and then the star became a shooting star and faded. A pop can tab, and kisses mean more to me than anything i've ever known, becuase i've never known them at all. Life is full of choices whether or not you choose the right one is up to you. If i was anyone anywhere right now, iw ould be you in his arms being loved. I know this is all a lot of nonsense but it all makes sense to me. And thats all that matters. The way i am is who i am. Who I am is who i was meant to be. Some things aren't meant to be just look at the world around you. Do you really think that it was supposed to turn out like this?i dont. I think a lot but people dont take me seriously when i do say i've been thinking. i hate how people just take me as a stupid person who doesn't know anything. I do actually have a brain inside of my head and i do think and i do hold civil deep conversations wiht people. I know sometimes i dont come off as it, but please please just take a chance to see that side of me. I wish people wouldnt' judge by looks. It hurts. Well the beeper beeped even though i didn't set it and its not really beeping. My mind told me it beeped. Freedom to write. Freedom to love. Freedom. Its all over rated. just like the time i flew. its all over rated . And nonsense believes in me and will show me i can live on and do whatever the heck iwant to. This summer i shall become someone new i will go into a new year being someone completely different, who knows if it'll be for the good. I might be smarter, cuter, funnier, more serious, who knows but i will live on an di will see that one of my dreams comes true and i will be happy one day and live happily ever after!