Thoughts on losing an abusive lover

Oh it’s been

Such a long time coming

Walking on egg shells

I have become

Someone I never met before

The hum-drum of normality

I silenced a personality inside me



I can’t look at this as

You leaving me

I must look at this as

Freedom given to me

Cause now I don’t need to hide

Am I finally done with wasting my life?



I think I am,

I think I can

I feel a thickened smoke recovering

A white open space.



Infatuation muffled me

In retrospect your sadistic heart

Complicated me

You encouraged the self-harmer

That riddles me



How can hate so easily disguise itself as love?

How can sleeping with a vulture

Give someone what they want?

I can’t understand the philosophy  

I can’t comprehend the ideology



But I do know that somehow

I’ll be okay



This ache that I feel

Will become part

Of yesterday

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Colin "Satyr" McNamara's picture

heh... I wouldn't even THINK about this abusive stuff if I was you... I'd forget them faster than light itself...

I like the images used in this though... the line including the vultures and stuff... really gives a good idea of what was going on.

and yea you're right... the ache will become nothing more than a part of the past.