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She Knows
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Poems She knows that there is something that I'm hiding
She knows that there is something on my mind
She can tell that I'm not really there
That I'm not really together today
She sees past my fake smiles but she won't say anything
I know she sees though me and yet I dont care
I don't say what I'm really thinking or anything for that matter
I don't really speak the truth I never have
I guess my whole life I have lied and been lied to
So lying really comes to me like a really bad habit
I dont get why I don't just tell her
Why I don't just break down and scream in their faces
All I want to do is cry and die but I can't they wont let me
All I have left is my lies of deception
And she knows all of this
She asks me everytime if there is anything I want to talk about
I always tell her no everything is fine
She gives me a look and backs off because she knows I won't give
I always try to tell her something anything that is on my mind
But everytime I try to speak my brain shuts down and I go blank
It's like a curse one that I have put on myself
I used to control when I would act like nothing is wrong
But now I can't control anything I look like I'm always happy
When in reality I am falling apart inside
She used to be able to sees through the lies and smiles
But she can't now I fool even the toughest
So I'm sorry but she cant know anymore it's time to move on
Time to see that no one can save me from the lies of deciet
No one can help not even me
