I Never Meant

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closet boxes 2002

I never meant to feel this empty

though it's my feeling everyday

I never meant to see this pain

though it's all I seem to see

I never meant to hear your hurt

but it's the very role I play

I never meant to feel this empty

but without that who would I be.



I never meant to hate this life

but it's a tendancy I have

I never meant to hate you too

but you never left me a choice

I never meant to think in black

though that colour shapes my day

I never meant to speak these words

but without them I have no voice.



I never meant to want to die

but this was just was too much for me

I never meant to cut my wrists

but I just felt the need to bleed

I never meant to make you cry

but that was past all my control

I never meant to kill myself

but all this pain destroyed my soul.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I know it's kinda depressing but what can you do.

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running_with_rabbits's picture

no one ever menas too hunnie

"now everybody wants you
bring you flowers for your hair"

good song good good

i like the i never meant to hate you coz i feel it all the time

"I never meant to cut my wrists
but I just felt the need to bleed"

amazing lines hunnie

and the last two
:( i feel ya and i am here

ash


Much Love

Ashley

Belinda's picture

hey nikki
well u better not cut ur wrists or i will personally kick ur ass!!! even tho i even had the thoughts, but its no way out..no matter how much pain is in our lives....death wont take it away or bring back our loved ones that have eaither died or just LEFT us hanging. dont take the easy way out....even if its a thought, ok? talk to u soon give me a call sometime...ok hehe talk soon
Belinda