What Makes Me

I don't know what makes me laugh more

that you said you cared for me

or that I believed you when you said it

but I also don't know which causes more pain.



I don't know what makes me cry more

the memories of you with me

or the vision of you with someone else

although through these thoughts there is no gain.



I don't know what makes me hate more

that you turned and walked away from me

or that I was stupid enough not to walk first

these ideas slowly drive me insane.



I don't know what makes me die more

that you moved on with your life

or that I let my heart be taken with you

I wonder who"s really to blame.



I don't know what makes me love more

that you said you were sorry

or that you cried when I said no

I know i'll never be the same.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Sorry guys, REALLY BAD DAY!!!!!
don't ask.

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running_with_rabbits's picture

"I don't know what makes me cry more
the memories of you with me
or the vision of you with someone else"

those rock! i am telling you everyone feels this when they lose someone:)

i know how most fo this feels babbies
its ok i am here for you :) call me anytime you have a bad day and just blurt out the words "ash i had a bad day" and i will be there for you :)

ash


Much Love

Ashley