Abandoned Child

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My brother died,

And in his place;

I was born;

But I was repelled.


 

My mother threw me from the table,

Abused me, both mind and body.

My father never present,

And if so, he ignored me.


They left each other fast,

'cause mother was a lesbian.

But my father needed a woman,

For his children and as a housewife.


 

The second was quite alright,

Even if she made me eat axis.

Only my sister I couldn't see,

That became off limits.


 

After years they had their divorce,

And then came the third, the most terrible.

My wicked stepmother,

The greatest dictator.


 

She tried to strangle my brother,

Then father did interfere.

She put me in the sanitarium,

With false motives, my fear.


 

Firstly in a crisis-centra,

'cause I run away from home.

Then in the sanitarium,

Where I for six months did roam.


 

In the sanitarium,

Provided with medication.

By which I lost my memory,

Crawling in the emptiness of chaos...

 

Regularly I suffered blackouts,

By which I saw nothing.

Not knowing what I did,

Much like sleep-walking;

And strange vistas occurred.


 

I wasn't suffering delirium,

Is what the doctors told.

So all this time,

I was in the asylum for no reason.


 

Then I had to go to boarding-school,

Where I developed something bad: anger.

I wanted to kill another, a female;

And Nyarlathotep, I am sorry;

Maybe I didn't wanted to commit this act,

But I had to from Satan...


 

What happened was unforeseen,

'cause my room was now aflame.

The building completely in axis,

The police came to arrest me.


 

A year and a half in prison,

Locked away in a cell, in Hell.

A year and a half terror,

The bondage of society.


 

When I got out, there was another project,

Named room-training.

I had to work in a factory,

But that didn't end well...


I started to mutilate myself,

Which I learned in the sanitarium.

They send me to the hospital,

To the psychiatric division.


Then again to the crisis-centra,

Which I didn't liked at all.

As if I had to start over,

This was too much overall...


 

Through the open door I escaped,

And from my last money;

I was buying a train-ticket,

Which brought me to Ramses.

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This is my autobiography.

nightlight1220's picture

The world of the labeled

The world of the labeled 'mentally ill'. It is a reflection of society 'in the raw'.

 

Don't flaunt your pretty words at me,

For have seen your true worth

In my brother's sanitariums and prisons,

The ghettos and lifeless hells of nursing homes 

And hospitals for the deformed and brain dead.

 

No, don't flaunt your pretty words at me.

 

~peace~


...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

missnecrosica's picture

? ? ? Explain please...

? ? ?

Explain please...

nightlight1220's picture

This was an inspiration from

This was an inspiration from reading this poem to societal 'bandaids' that never produce any substantial amounts of healing, without the self evaluation enough to ask the question, "what are we as a society doing wrong when it comes to these too common stories of battering, abuse, and blatant uncaring patterns of what we call humanistic?" Pretty self explanatory, just maybe a different perspective from where you were when you wrote the poem.

 

Kudos! Nice work! 

 

~peace~

 

.....


...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

missnecrosica's picture

Ok, I was thinking weird

Ok, I was thinking weird things but you inspired me to write a poem!

 

Thank you for your comment! :D

bishu's picture

Scary

Your writing scared me out of my wits. Good writing.


©bishu 

 

missnecrosica's picture

Thank you for your comment!

Thank you for your comment! You haven't seen anything yet, the worst is still to come...