To be Perfectly Flawed


          So let me say first and foremost that I am not some great genius or philosopher, I did not attend a special school where they instilled wisdom into my head. In fact I am a high school dropout who cannot even attend collage unless I find my transcripts or get over a self entitled pride of obtaining my G.E.D. I am jobless because I choose to act on a rotting pit in my gut that ate away at my soul everyday. Everything I have ever wrote about or talked about has been primarily based off personal opinion or personal experience. What I had to say many times felt to me like common sense or seemed to be a prime example of the golden rule.


             So many people "talk" about being a good church going person. Saved by Jesus or enlightened by spirituality, however when their metal is tested or comes down to writing that check most sing a different tune. Almost forgetting their "What would Jesus do" slogan. I am not saying that greed or vanity is a horrible thing or even needed. What I am saying is there is no need to be two faced. If that means you are an asshole, bigot, or even the devil himself/herself then be true to yourself else risk losing more of your own morality..


             In this life from what I have witnessed and even endured there will be things and events that will beat you down and hold you there until you just wish the next breath would be your last. That moment you throw your hands up and come to the realization it would be far easier to give up and succumb to everything you personally stand against. When you find a moment like that and you find yourself still struggling, still fighting for whatever reasons you will see pure beauty when that force weakens and you are able to climb back to your feet. That "beauty" manifests itself in the form of self reliance and personal gratitude simply because you did not give up, you overcame that hardship and prevailed against all odds. We are truly the ultimate paradox in a universe built on mathematics and laws. Being self-aware alone should provide you with enough evidence to the power and resolve we humans posses. Anything is possible by our hands and desires. We can create. We can destroy. So the next time you find yourself in a situation you feel you cannot overcome or endure just remember that within you an entire universe has already been created and only you are held responsible for your intent and actions.


               We shape and mold our entire reality based off our ego, not our soul. Everyone is found guilty of this and again not saying this is bad for our ego protects our soul but if it were the other way around, imagine a tidal wave so massive that practically overnight the entire world would change. Even the most evil person's soul is pure just impossible to see through the tainted veil spun by the twisted perversions of their reality.


               With all that said, I simply close my diatribe with a simple challenge to this universe and the reality I manifest everyday. I have not given up, I will not let the negativity of the blind and arrogant defeat me. I will die with my head held as high as I can keep it, and when I do die I will be victorious even if I lost, because I know that I did not quit no matter how bad my heart bled, or the amount of tears I had shed. I will not let the monster bleed what is left of my own humanity and I will go out in a flicker of light because I lived my life to my own beat of the drum, I am me and I am only human. Perfectly flawed and imperfectly priceless.








Author's Notes/Comments: 

This might be my last peice for awhile.

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nightlight1220's picture


...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "


MatthewWayne's picture

Wow loved his poem Thank you

Wow loved his poem

Thank you so much for your kind words. I've been pretty much doubting myself here a lot lately. Surprising that I'd write a piece about perseverance when I am feeling completely opposite of that.

"I am my own sort of strange, a supernova of madness and brillance. Forced to share the same space and time. Sane enough to not be seen, yet not crazy enough to be heard." -- Matthew Wayne

nightlight1220's picture

"The captain of your ship.

"The captain of your ship. The master of your soul".


Excellently written IMHO. People who like to say the secret is completely letting go of the ego, deny their humanity if you ask me, and in the process, they deny the collective of humanity ignorance. 





...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "


Morningglory's picture

Namaste. Thanks for the trip

Namaste. Thanks for the trip through your mind. Persinally, i hope this isnt your last piece for a while. I like reading your thoughts. :) but if i must wait, i'm sure the next read will be worth it. Peace...

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