`Why do they look at me that way?`

Why do they look at me that way?
"He's not all there", I've heard them say
Leave me alone you faceless folk
To fight in war it ain't no joke
I've lost my wife my job my friends
Was it all worth it ,that all depends
I don't know why I feel this way
I took my oath I did obey
I killed because I was scared to die
By blowing those Sky hawks from the sky
Those retard bombs they drove us mad
They sent us on the Galahad
The screams of the dying, twisted metal shards
A floating burning hell of dead Welsh Guards
I did not cry for them that day
Why do they look at me that way?
My brain recorded events for me
I seem to torture myself with glee
In the capital Stanley we drank ourselves sober
The Sergeant Major said "The party is over."
They sent us back to our home shore
Amongst our families we were still fighting our own war
It's nearly twenty years since we won the day
Those painful memories just wont go away
I love my Country and my brothers in arms
On November the 11th I'll sing hymns and psalms
I will wear my medals with pride on that day
The only day of the year they don't look at me that way.


© Tony McNally

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A very apt poem words cant heel the nightmares in my head
i have not had the support that others have had one failed
marrage and 22 years of hurt you would think it gets better with time i wish nice words mate chimp

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I especially like this poem. Today I had an extended conversation with a disabled VN vet who was a part of the 101 Airborn, and in addition to physical disabilities he belatedly draws 100% PTSD.

This is the third time I've ever spoke to him after an introduction a couple of months ago. We had a long conversation. He is a somwhat pathetic case, and he said, "Even his folks thought he had a problem that he could conquer if he'd just put his heart to the task." He was repeatedly told, "wake up."

He wants to be a part of my book that I'm writing concerning the injuries to individuals in the wake of war.

Society and our citizens don't want to be bothered with the injuries that they have cause or placed on us.


W.D. Gray