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My Christmas Gift to You
My Christmas Gift to You
By Muriel Palanca
Underneath the mistletoe,
I take a chance and stand below.
I want to wait for you to come,
But I feel so stupid and I look so dumb.
So time stands still and I remember,
How much I thought of you in December.
It feels so routine cause I’ve done it all year.
I’m not obsessed, I just wish you were here.
Cause everyday when I see your face,
I want to forget you but you won’t go away.
I’m afraid to be near you cause I feel like dying.
Instead, in my room, I fall asleep crying.
So I put on a mask to hide all the pain.
I lie for the reasons I can’t explain.
By moonlight I pray cause you’re so far.
I wonder if you can hear my heart.
It’s quietly longing, but you’re too busy to listen.
I feel so empty cause it’s you that I’m missin’.
You’re all that I asked for. You’re the one thing I need.
But somehow I know you won’t be under my tree.
I know I have presents but I’ll open them later.
What I want can’t be wrapped in paper.
It’s more than money but it has no price.
It’s the dream that haunts me when I sleep at night.
I want to pretend but it’s still not enough.
And yet I feel foolish cause I know I’m in love.
When I try to tell you, it’s hard to speak.
Whenever you smile, my knees go weak.
I’ll never have you, whatever I do.
So here’s my Christmas gift to you.
I’m giving you all of what I’ll never receive.
This is my heart. It’s yours to keep.
Please don’t break it. It’s more fragile than snow.
It’s stronger than my love, but you’ll never know.
Cause you never knew me. You never tried.
I’ll never forget you, but this is goodbye.
I’ll try to move on. I know that I should.
I’d wait till forever, if only I could.
