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Never Say I Love Again
Many days went by when I tried to block my view from it all
Never thought it would come to this again when I no longer feel so tall
Pushed down and never helped up from the pain that I have to endure
Maybe the hurt is a sign of the mistakes that I make with my life but im not sure
Seems like everyday I feel more alone then ever have been the day before
And everyday I only feel more empty inside and again she walks out that door
Is my life such a bore? That I have to watch girls left a right leave me behind?
What the fuck is this, a vision maybe? God telling me something, using a sign?
His method only leaves me dying in a grave, ill have to dig up myself
For what I’ve seen so far ill be alone to the end, unloved and unwanted
No matter how long I have lamented...all along...
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Now it’s the same as it was before
On my own again, traveling a lonely road
No one to love, no one to hold
God damn these feelings are getting old
Seems everyday I become even more cold
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Im fo real, I only want someone for me
Someone to love and see the way that I have to see
Someone I can be with forever and just be me
Ill be the dead end of my family tree
They say there is someone for everyone
But I think I was left out, or maybe her life ended before we even met
I wish I knew so I could wouldn’t have to go through this hellish feud
Why do I feel this way every single fucking day
Ill never get over this alone
But it seems that my last relationship was ruined from the feelings I’ve shown
The sorrow has grown
Like a plant that’s been sewed to hurt me inside to the bone
Just to make feel inside even more alone...
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Now it’s the same as it was before
On my own again, traveling a lonely road
No one to love, no one to hold
God damn these feelings are getting old
Seems everyday I become even more cold
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Where are you?
That love I’ve longed for many years...
If only I could show all my feelings and my tears
Without being dissed and pissed on by my very own peers
Who only worry about money and they’re own bull shit career’s
Who fear everything that overpowers them so they suck up to get ahead
But on the inside they are really dead
They don’t feel like I do
Neither do they ponder the truth
They are handed a manual from birth and they go by it like it’s the fucking bible
Prejudice bitches and up tight hoe’s
Mother fucker’s who think our lives are nothing but a big fucking joke
But I hope you dicks fucking choke
Because im tired of your shit
You try to bring me down to the mound
But there’s really only one of us that’s making a sound
Listen to it, its my heart beat
Sit down and have a seat and listen to the rythematical beats of a broken heart
Hear it skip a beat hoping to stop for good
Thinking bad thoughts and maybe for once in its lonely life, it could
One day become more than a fragment of a life that’s all been for nothing
Just maybe it will come, but patience is something I was never taught
I was only fed with lies and hate that I should have fought
But never again will I let them consume me
Ill never go back that way after seeing what I had to see...
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Now it’s the same as it was before
On my own again, traveling a lonely road
No one to love, no one to hold
God damn these feelings are getting old
Seems everyday I become even more cold
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Now I ask myself, can I trust another girl again?
Maybe she wont make my mind twist and bend
Maybe she will be the world to me and lift all the stress that I have to go through
And love me forever that only and true heart could ever do
So I ask again, why am I living?
Am I waiting still? Should I keep going still?
Or should I swallow all of these pills and over dose on pain killers
I guess you could say my life is kind of a thriller
Since everyday is like another disappointment because im still alive
And I wish for better days or in the end im just gonna die
Its that deep, seriously I don’t think im gonna make it
I’ve fallen so far, I think I’ve reached hells pit
Im frozen, so just take your hit
I can take it all
Thats why I had to write this song...
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Now it’s the same as it was before
On my own again, traveling a lonely road
No one to love, no one to hold
God damn these feelings are getting old
Seems everyday I become even more cold
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Im so afraid, ill never say I love again...
I can feel inside my world collapsing inside of my own head
It only symbolizes that soon I will be dead
But I don’t know anymore my feelings have betrayed me
I thought I was falling in love but I was really fooling myself
And pushed down once again, pressed against the same dirt I have felt
Take more hits in the chest, a musket gat stuck in my hat
Only to blow me away from this darkened world
To show me all the troubles I couldn’t curl
But damn, I wish it was so much better
If I could just have that someone, to make me feel confident
Feeling this way only shows me all my mistakes
Instead of focusing on the true reward
I focus on the lead above me that they will pour
If I fail the one challenge I have failed over and over
Its dramatizing me into a speedy frenzy
I just wanna take an axe and smash it all like im all crazy
But no, I cant, its over
I feel more hurt now, I wish I wasn’t sober
Id drink til I die
My inner side only cries
Not matter what I try...
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Now it’s the same as it was before
On my own again, traveling a lonely road
No one to love, no one to hold
God damn these feelings are getting old
Seems everyday I become even more cold
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