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Incomplete
So I look inside myself to see
What is really left of me
So far away you now are
Makes me want to crash my car
With me inside and all that is left
Gone forever with one final step
I take a long look in this mirror of mine
I can see it in my face, im dying
Atleast that is what it feels like
When I lay down alone again at night
I dont look the same inside
I cling and claw but I cant feel alive
Another weekend has gone by
Time wont wait it passes my life
I stare at my ceiling late at night
Waiting...hoping...praying...that she might...
But why? My feelings havent faded
Even after all this pain ive regreted
Fuck, what is really left of me? Of my heart...
How much was real, what was fake? Why did we fall apart?
Your choice was made and I blackend my reflection
You were with him while I fought this revalation
I bet you said things to him you used to tell me
A noose around my neck with the images I can see.
This pain has been redefined
I sell my soul to the bottle ive signed
Im not me, and im not sober
I havent been since the day you told me it was over
Not since I read those blogs, and seen new pictures
Im just barely breathing, as the pain grows thicker
I look at new pics of her, your little one
I wanted to be her future, but you said you were "done"
Never. Never will I hold her in my arms
Never will I comfort her, or protect her from harm
Never will I get to see her pretty face
And for that I just want to put my life to waste
I have nothing but love to give
And still you stab me with your metal shiv
What did I do, or maybe, what did he do?
To drive you away from me, the truth I wish I knew
I had nothing but the best intentions for us
But it blew away as if it were just ashes and dust
So hollow here you have left me
And I am broken, thats all I have left to be
Until all these pieces of me are complete
I will drown in booze ever so sweet
Hurt is all that remains
Deep within my alcoholic veins...
I wont be able to stand on my own two feet
Until the day that I am complete.
