Smile.

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My true self

I smile when I’m happy. 

I smile when I’m mad. 

I smile when I’m depressed. 

I smile when I’m sad. 

 

Why do I smile? 

Because I have created this facade of me

One that is cheery and bubbly

 

I can’t have my true feelings

I can’t show them, I can’t. 

For if I do, people tell me don’t feel. 

 

“I think I can.

I think I can. 

I think I can.”

I. Think. I. Can’t.

 

Don’t feel sad

Don’t feel bad. 

It’s okay 

Tomorrow willl be a brighter day. 

 

Gripping feelings. 

Gripping thoughts. 

Tired feelings

Suicidal thoughts. 

 

But what if it’s not?

What if me shoving down my internal thoughts

Is what will end me up in the plots?

Why the hell is it okay 

For others to feel this way? 

 

Are my thoughts and emotions

Too much of a roller coaster motion?

 

Perhaps I’ll just continue to smile

Help others forget for a while

That were all human

And that “I think I can” 

 

Smile. 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

this poem is an expression of how I’m feeling inside. I don’t fully have control over how others will interpret this, but for me I have been told that I’m all bubbles and sunshine. So I needed a chance to express my thoughts. Thank you for taking the time to read my poem

word_man's picture

i guess sometimes we need to

i guess sometimes we need to hide our feelings


ron parrish