I smile when I’m happy.
I smile when I’m mad.
I smile when I’m depressed.
I smile when I’m sad.
Why do I smile?
Because I have created this facade of me
One that is cheery and bubbly
I can’t have my true feelings
I can’t show them, I can’t.
For if I do, people tell me don’t feel.
“I think I can.
I think I can.
I think I can.”
I. Think. I. Can’t.
Don’t feel sad
Don’t feel bad.
It’s okay
Tomorrow willl be a brighter day.
Gripping feelings.
Gripping thoughts.
Tired feelings
Suicidal thoughts.
But what if it’s not?
What if me shoving down my internal thoughts
Is what will end me up in the plots?
Why the hell is it okay
For others to feel this way?
Are my thoughts and emotions
Too much of a roller coaster motion?
Perhaps I’ll just continue to smile
Help others forget for a while
That were all human
And that “I think I can”
Smile.
i guess sometimes we need to
i guess sometimes we need to hide our feelings
ron parrish