Me Without You

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Self Harm

you spoke to my troubled heart when I needed to feel you in my soul

you comforted me when I was alone in the dark



so many times I'd vowed to forsake you

but in reality you are a part of me still



I woke up calling your name

craving your bitter-sweet pain to set me free



we spoke in a language no one could hear

and your familiar touch gave me beautiful release



I found myself helplessly drawn to you

like a moth to a flickering flame you intoxicated me



you stole my fears and pain and you left me your

indelible mark to remember you by when you departed



I may be who I am because of you but do I regret knowing you?

I'm not sure, it has always confused me



I have been truthful, yet ashamed of our relationship

and I have never tried to hide you, but I'd rather you not be seen



so I guess what I'm saying is I don't need you anymore

I can make it on my own



so if I find myself craving your razorblade kisses

I will look within myself for the answers I seek

because my old friend, I am still ME without you


Author's Notes/Comments: 

if you are like me you will understand this very well if not i don't want to explain

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Kari Sheppard's picture

that's true...you are very insightful although it was also quite painfully obvious...i'm trying to "quit"

mpr8888@yahoo.com's picture

i was so taken by the subject that i didn't leave a critique. for anyone who does know, they can see the beauty of this poem, for how deep it is. the symbolism is a great means of secrecy and mystery, enticing. i read twice. the first time was just being captivated by your words, the second, to find meaning. i was touched.


MR

mpr8888@yahoo.com's picture

i'm taking a somewhat educated guess in saying you self- mutilated. i say this because halfway through, this poem reminded me of an addict. and mutilators are just that; always craving the next fix. i know, though i never found the words, only the blades.


MR