Believe


Betrayed just doesn't do it justice
The word simply fails to convey
 
How easily I was replaced was such a
stab in my back and a slap to my face

I'm still going to get our tattoo on my wrist that says 'believe'
But now it will symbolize only a belief in me

I loved you and fought like hell for you
And the first chance you got, you moved on with someone new

Damn I feel dumb, used, and completely naive
To thank that someone could actually love me

All the times I defended you when others warned me, time and again
I told them they were wrong, and that you were my soulmate, my best friend

Stupid doesn't begin to describe what they must think of me now
And a million "told you so's", won't make it better somehow

I was just one in a long line of fools
One who knew life was hard, but maybe not this cruel

It's one thing to make me believe in what we had
But you were a part of my son's lives and that's what sad

They now know you moved on without missing a beat
And their Mom meant nothing to you, as they mourn your deceit

I have to teach them that no matter how hard you try
Some people you just can't love enough,so it ends in goodbye

The harder lesson to explain though, is how you are with someone new
When all they can see and hear is their mom's heart broken in two

I tell them that love is a risk that can make us all scared
But don't let it paralyze them, or harden them with fear
 
For it's better to fly for a second and fall to your death,
Then to never feel the wind, as you struggle for breath

Love is a gamble that I took and I lost
And losing those years, my joy, and my pride is my cost

But I would not go back and change a single thing
And I hope it's happiness your new girl brings

I hope she knows she has some tough shoes to fill
because I loved you with all my strength and all my will

I wish you would have waited just for a little while
Before you noticed her laugh and you noticed her smile

Now slowly each day my face, my touch, my smell will begin to blur
And all your memories will soon involve her

You may even forget the sounds we made, and the songs we sang
Or how we helped each other get through life's hardships and pain

But then one random day, on the radio, you'll hear "Believe"
And in that brief moment you'll think of me

And you may even wonder if you made the right call
When you replaced me with no hesitation in no time at all

But by then I'll be gone and I hope one day you will see
No one loved you, or will ever love you, as hard as me.

 
 
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A wonderful, heartfelt poem

A wonderful, heartfelt poem you have created, expressing the depth of pain, recovery and 'moving on'. Loved it...