IS IT....



Is it that I was to open as a kid that now I’m too afraid to say how I’m really feeling?


Is it that I loved so many people that treated me like shit that I can’t love easily?


Is it that I spoke to much as a kid that now I don’t say anything that matters to me?


Is it that I was called so many names that now I have self-hate?


Or is it that I let people control and now I’m finally realizing I’m in control of who I trust or love? That I have full control over everything. Although I used to always blame it on others but now I’m realizing I have control not them!


 But how could I ever move on from what they did I ask myself! What if I can’t? What do I do then? How do I move on? How to I take back my life? How to I forget those words you used to call me? How do I take back control of my life? How do I move on from the hell I was but through? How do I move on from the past?



Author's Notes/Comments: 

hey give thoughts pleas say if you can relate!

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Cascade's picture

If you can, realize that

If you can, realize that hurting people hurt people. It's a viscious cycle, but if you can helps, I know.

imyourworstnightmarre's picture


Thanks for reading what I wrote. Also what you said is so true I guess you don't realize some things tell someone else points it out.

RoC's picture

You move on

By placing one foot in front of the other as you leave the past behind.
Live in the moment instead of yesterdays or tomorrows.
Remember, yesterday is gone, and tomorrow never comes, because when you get there, it becomes today, now, this moment, and that is all you'll ever actually have. Like the song says, "live each moment like the next will never come" (Fiona Apple - Criminal -- paraphrased)
Family, friends, enemies, strangers, and anyone else who tries to knock you off your moments are just trying to push their own insecurities on you. Misery does love company, after all. You win by pushing that misery out of the way. By denying its hold.
Only you can determine what you let affect you now, and if anyone else's opinion mattered, you'd already have it.

"Music is a universal language and needs not be translated. With it, soul speaks to soul" - Songsterr

Depression-spoke's picture

But sometimes

But sometimes

You have to hold on

For the hatred 

Is the last of your humanity


But sometimes

Their insecurities

Are because of

Your own


Sometimes the will of man

Is but a pebble

Among a field

Of boulders

Bryson Masters

imyourworstnightmarre's picture


Thaknski i really enjoyed reading what you said! If only moving on was an easy prosecess.

RoC's picture

You're welcome

Very little in life worth the effort is easy. You just have to keep on pushing through.
Like Rodney Atkins said "if you're going through he'll, keep on goin. You might get out, 'fore the devil evens knows you're there"

"Music is a universal language and needs not be translated. With it, soul speaks to soul" - Songsterr