Changes

Where i was once happy. Now sadness fills my hours.

Where i could once let go, Now i hold on for dead life.

Where i would once smile, Now changes to frowns.



I'm going through serious times, Everything is changing.



I could once love freely, giving time to everyone, now i barely have time for myself.

I could once focus on one person, garnering full attention, Now i cant sit still and listen.

I could once live and breathe for one true love, never faltering in my adoration. Now i search for the same feelings from many.



My world is so much different now, Everything is changing.



At one time, i could sit alone for hours enjoying the silence around me,Now i feel the need to surround myself with many distractions.

At one time I could pick and choose who I would open up to. Now I open myself to anyone who will listen.

At one time i could openly joke and laugh with everyone, Now i spend my time brooding over past mistakes and not finding time to enjoy myself.



My life is spinning out of control, everything is changing.



Never was I scared of peoples reactions to my rambling. Now i feeling judged for every word i say.

Never was i scared of questions people had for me, because the answers came easily. Now, I tremble at the thought of exposing too much of my past.

Never was i scared of facing people and getting my point across, Now I run from the smallest, most simple confrontations.



Emptiness is overtaking me slowly, everything is changing.



There was a time when fear was a distant thought. Now its rests in the front of my mind.

There was a time when my past could be explained simply, Now hours of details fill the stories.

There was a time when i could look someone in their eyes and feel their true intentions. Now, I can barely look at myself in the mirror.



My life is getting more complicated, everything is changing.



Once i would die for a select few people without a second thought. Now, i cant bear to live another day alone.

Once I would hold on to friends with undying love, Now these same friends have left me alone to die.



The sun is setting on my existence, Everything is changing.



A short time ago, my emotions were stable and bearable, Now, they fluctuate so much i don't know if I'm coming or going.

A short time ago, my eyes would stay dry for weeks on end. Now,i cry more than once a week.

A short time ago, my heart was accepting and beating freely. Now, it has turned itself off and rejects anyone who gets too close.



Only one more option left, Everything is changing.

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laila's picture

wow I really like this one gwenzy. it's really deep and emotional, the way its written makes one have much admiration for you as a writer. I hope things change back to the way they used to be.