Half Broken Stem

i don't wana play cards no more
karma striked me hard,
i cant take them folds no more
i cant take them aches no more
and its all in the crash

got that anchor on my shoulder,
can't stand up straight,
can't salute Mamma
i aint no soldier

remember Mamma? that night you called me hopeless
i cant believe u expected me to be that selfless

you people broke my spine but ive saved up some skin
i am for every time i ever tried
i am for every time i ever listened

ive held your every goddamn turn daddy,
but you also broke my back
from every heavy left, to all the rights u reversed back
all ur shit
i was there
through it all,
all ur shit!
keeping track
those sleepless nights
from your crappy fights

it all ended at "All Rise"
at that moment, i blurred out
Alll rise
though i've seen it roll from the start
how dare you people use me,
family blood, fuck that
keep up that guard

Mamma it was for u
i saved, i held, and i buried;
Daddy it was for u
i used to sweat, handle, and carry
but now its an endless chain of blame, hell its so funny
hilarious to know, shit, it was all in vain

ive grown but you people have pulled out my stem
plant me back on solid soil
it is where i belong, above you all
and let me cry
let me cry for everything you people want and i could not have
let me cry for every dream you ever had
let me cry for not being as as tough as mamma was
let me cry for not being worthy of Daddy's love

let me cry for not being them
let me cry over my half broken stem