Regrets are strange

I wake up in the morning and look back at simple things I did the day before and feel regret. 


 

 

Like reading something I wrote yesterday and I feel like I don't even know the person that wrote it

 

 

I feel like every day I wake up I am a new person, it weirds me the fuck out

 

 

 

I don't feel emotionally attached to really anything lately, sure my family I will always love, but I really don't go out of my way to see them

 

 

I guess I am attaching "love" to just a visit hug type love, that's pretty shitty.

 

 

 

I really am starting to believe I am kind of insane, not a single person I know personally can I communicate with about my thoughts

 

 

 

When I do try and talk about shit, I can see in most motherfuckers eyes they have no clue what the fuck I am saying

 

 

 

I am frustrated, I am bored, I'd like to numb all this shit but I know what always come from that shit... More regret. 

 

 

 

One perc turns into three roxys and a bottle of wild turkey and my best friends sister ends up on top of me...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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You sound like a really nice

You sound like a really nice person to me...one that is creative, strong character, and very wise. Maybe you just need time alone. I mean, it isn't like anyone has robbed you of your freedom? Growth can feel lonely until you realize those who think they know each other are really just pretending for the sake of fooling themselves into thinking they aren't lonely. More people need to learn that being alone doesn't mean lonely...it means youre starting on the journey to really like yourself more than you like pretending you like everyone else so much. 

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...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "