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Here I lay, awake, again,

As these thoughts terrorize my brain,

What's with this feeling chilling me to the bone, 

With all these people and things that i've learned, 

What was the meaning and what was the cost, 

I feel like i need a reason for these things i have lost, 

Why do things happen, is it all my fault, 

Those friendships that have faded and fallen apart, 

Am i too distant, do they not understand, 

I guess nothing in life is ever as planned. 

But when i go looking for change and seeking reform, 

I always return so tattered and worn, 

Sometimes i feel my best friend is my pen, 

But it's all out of ink so my thoughts are trapped in, 

If i told you i loved you, what would you say,

Would you look me in the eyes as you push me away,

Would you try to understand me, would you possibly stay, 

I don't have the answers and i feel afraid, 

I'm just scared to lose what was so hard to get, 

I don't make friends easily, so i can't lose any yet, 

These nights I'm awake and i just need to talk, 

Need to hear someones voice to get me out of shock, 

Half of my day is spent sitting alone, 

Wide awake, while you sleep, i guess i'm too far gone,

I just need a friend to keep a decent conversation, 

And let me explain my ridiculous situation, 

Who can i tell that i never sleep,

I'm kind of depressed and i don't really eat,

I know i've done things that were hard to atone, 

But I'm getting fucking tired of being alone.

I guess this is what happens when you write what you think,

Open the door to yourself and find yourself on the brink, 

Why not do drugs when all you have is yourself, 

Put the pictures in the trash and the bong on the shelf, 

But this smoke is just cheap medication, 

A simple escape from a complicated situation, 

What should i do when i look in your eyes,

When i just want to kiss you but i can only smile, 

What is this feeling that's holding me back, 

Why can't i just get my thoughts on track,

I guess i just feel cold and lonely,

Wishing everyday, if only if only, 

But wishes don't come true, 

And shooting stars fade, 

There is no escape from this world that i've made, 

Where i just need to relax, and take a break,

Finally forgive myself for my mistakes, 

Look myself in the eyes again, 

This time without the sadness and pain, 

And hope that i can keep them clear, 

Show no more of this pain and fear, 

And live again in a world renewed, 

With higher hopes and a clearer view.