Almost Atheist

Eyes full of scars
Mind full of confusions
Looking at the stars
Repeating same illusions

 

Pretending someone's there
Looking down upon me
Dying to see his one glare
Is there a God to save me?

 

Feelings are going to fade
I will become an atheist
And if you are afraid
Prove me that you exist

 

through every step of life
I kept my faith in you
Still waiting for that light
Still surrounded by the blue

 

Where were you at that time
When I was fighting with my stammer
Believing you was a crime
Should've kill myself with a hammer

 

Holy books couldn't guide me
I am lost with no path
Darkness is what I see
I found the truth at last

 

I was wrong that you'll come
To help me get back up
I was left there so numb
And so scared to step up..I gave up

 

Dreams I followed are burning
Like a rose in flames
With wet eyes I'm yearning
Digging a grave for my aims

 

Thoughts pops in my mind and insist
That you're a myth I should leave
I want to be an atheist
But I know, and I believe,
That you won't let me be

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Author's Notes/Comments: 

i know you won't like at first but let me tell you.. its not about becoming atheist .. an atheist wont write something for God.. its more like a son who's mad at his father.. that's it.

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nightlight1220's picture

No matter who it is for, i

No matter who it is for, i like it a lot. Gohil, I have to say, i enjoy reading most all you write. As far as there being a god, i truly believe we reap what we create for ourselves. So whether someone believes in god or not, i feel it isn't any of my business, because the god issue is all about the person and where they are on their life journey. 

Enjoyable read.

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...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

GOHIL48's picture

Thank you so much!! it means

Thank you so much!! it means alot to me! :) and yeah i do believe in God and if someone doesn't believe in God i dont curse them or something.. first thing is to be a good human being that's all matters

Marand92's picture

I really liked this!

I loved it! It was a great read, now i know you weren't talking about "god", but as a former christian i could relate myself with the doubt. 
Your a great poet, don't let them tell you differently!
 
 

Mssga

 

GOHIL48's picture

I'm not great but thanks alot

I'm not great but thanks alot for your compliment :) I'm glad that people liked it and show it the way i see it!

brandnewglory's picture

It feels like a relationship

It feels like a relationship that has been strained,

like your talking to God telling him you cant see him

telling him you need him to be present,

I could see how someone would pre-judge

but im glad i took the time to read it,

 

GOHIL48's picture

woah ! thanks alot man for

woah ! thanks alot man for reading it ! :) i really appreciate ur comments

nightlight1220's picture

I would say to keep writing.

I would say to keep writing. There is a sense in this to me that says that you are not Athiest, but just wise enough to see that symbolism can only be taken so far.

 

We are on the same page... ;-)


...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

GOHIL48's picture

thanks alot :) at least

thanks alot :) at least someone noticed that

nightlight1220's picture

Yes....the scars have only

Yes....the scars have only helped me see the true light that shines so brightly beyond the facades.... keep in mind "they know not what they do'. Blessings. . Keep writing. <3


...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

GOHIL48's picture

thank you so much :) God

thank you so much :)

God bless u

justanotherscreename's picture

I really like this

I really like this structure. 

GOHIL48's picture

thanks alot :) mostly i just

thanks alot :) mostly i just got negative reviews saying im writing against God

justanotherscreename's picture

Well if they read the poem

Well if they read the poem how I saw it then they would see it isn't exactly against God. I see it as you have been told your whole life that God will be there and now you are expecting it. Even the last stanza says you want to be an atheist but believe God won't let you be. It is a very well done poem and if there are negative comments by people who believe in God then they should take a little more time to read it unobjectively.

GOHIL48's picture

exactly ! thats the whole

exactly ! thats the whole point of this poem that i still believe in him and he is still with me

nightlight1220's picture

That would be apropo for

That would be apropo for those who believe paying rent for a bulding is what will change the world. There is much waste in the institution of most churches of power.


...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

GOHIL48's picture

hehehe... that's funny.. i

hehehe... that's funny.. i understand what u mean