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Take a deep look in the eyes of this castaway

stranded, exiled, isolated.....

in my own little island not content enough for praise,

so I provide soliloquies for my own clarity

recording muddy visions of my own personality

tearing pages of my life's scriptures

into pieces I build within a frame of mind picture

I'm living within parenthesis in lower case letters and

whispering secrets to myself on how to efficiently survive

please excuse my forward manner

I've dealt with the heavily monotonous slander

of never being good enough to excel forward

insecurities become the tenants of my life

while the confidence get evicted

stranded, exiled, isolated.....

structures of finances built just to an end result

of not having shit

false pretenses of mild mannered snakes

awaiting to snuff me when I least expect them

just to be on my team or in the driver's seat

remnants of condemnation for choosing quality over quantity

maybe it's the sincerity in me

in looking out for other's first

call it a gift and a curse

cuz you truly couldn't see through my 2-way mirror

if you knew what side you were really on

For once I'd want my love to be a tax write off

when I'm able to give it freely without neglecting myself

stranded, exiled, isolated.....

now undergoing my 5th year of legal divorce

constantly asking myself.....

what smothered my direction when circumstances were minimal?

or to rephrase.....

why did I do it in the first place?

It's way too deep to depend on dependence

of emotion, so anxiety transforms to intelligence

and piece of mind becomes a mantle for independence

way of life is equivalent to forks in the road

knowing that if I take the right path, I still might be lost

And dysfunctionally speaking,

no one said it was going to be easy...

My swollen glands of constant digesting of

bitterness, sorrow, self-doubt and anxiety

all becomes healed as I provide a down payment

towards my happiness

I don't like second guessing, but I put my

one-foot-in-front-of-the-other method

as a timeless definition for "motivation."



S.O.S.

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