You Want to See Me Drown

Here I sit in total silence,
And simply stare straight on through.
The tears roll down my face,
There is nothing without you.

It kills me inside to know it's my fault.
I'm the reason our relationship came to an abrupt halt.
And now I know I can't get you back,
My life is empty when you are what I lack.

You said we would probably never get over each other,
But look at you, you already have another.
Now I have the short end of the stick.
The thought of you with her makes me sick. . .

I wonder what would be best.
Is this some sort of god-given test?
Is this my punishment you chose to give?
He doesn't even want me to live.

You used to say you love me,
But know you wish me to leave you be.
You tell me you hope I die,
And yet again in sorrow I cry.

You hear songs that remind you of us,
And under your breath you surely cuss.
You change the radio to something new.
but inside you still feel blue.

I wish I could hit undo.
I'm dying here without you.
But the worst part is,
You're happy to see me drown. . .

Author's Notes/Comments: 

all in memory, but I have better now <3 Andrew

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Newn's picture

hope it's started getting

hope it's started getting better for you . . .

Newn's picture

Hate to see you're having a

Hate to see you're having a rough time... hope the best for you. it's nicely written poem.

exkaijadesatiro's picture

i hate you see you lie. was

i hate you see you lie.
was always something you did well.

Newn's picture

ow

ow. bitch....

exkaijadesatiro's picture

lol, just saying. you were

lol, just saying. you were really good at it.
but you don't even have to anymore. . don't see what the point is.
don't say you hate to see me have a rough time.
you and i both you that you don't care.
you're glad if anything.

Newn's picture

ok, no lies. I hate you, I

ok, no lies.
I hate you, I hate what you did to me, and I kinda hope you never get to be happy. Better?