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If
If
Ultimatums never seem to work with me
They hurt me and you fail to see
I try my hardest even harder more
You say nothing and I close the door.
I walk the steps to my solitude
They seem like miles now
Wondering why you feel this way
Wondering why you do and how
After years of loving promises
You changed the rules so quick
I fail to hear the words you say
But understand the IF
You put me in a hard position
Checking all your hard conditions
Scrubbing, folding, cooking, sex,
Inside I wonder what is next,
Living with a man who cherishes drink,
Not caring at all as to what I think
You would rather drink a pint or fifth
Than talk about your hundred if's
Full dilemmas, my minds a blur
if I'm not good enough, let him find her
If I have to leave, a kiss I will blow
And where I end up, that's for no one to know
If I have to leave, I'm not coming back
And the her you might pick might someday will pack
Her things up not liking the if's you gave me
And alone again I promise you'll be.
You'll miss me I swear but then it's too late,
Now your mind's a blur and yourself you will hate
For thinking only of your one single self
And the whiskey you swirl around in your mouth
Remembering all the if's that were spoken
And the promises minus the if's that were broken
Denise Ellis
March 4, 2013
Written after conversation with boyfriend I was moving in with......I could live with him IF.....Ultimatums don't sit well with me and the conversation ended me saying I refused to be his Cinderella.....things worked out okay when we finished arguing and compromised our needs
