I remember all the times

I remember all the times i tried to reach out to you,
all the times i would do anything to make you look at me.

I remember all the times i tried to make you see,
all the times i wanted you to take a peak at me.

I remember all the times i tried to show you,
all the times i wanted to be what you wanted me to be.

I remember all the times i tried to fix everything,
all the times i blamed and hated myself cause i wasnt what you wanted.

I remember all the times i tried to change,
all the times i wanted to be somebody else.

I remember all the times i tried to smile,
all the times i ended up crying instead.

I rememer all the times you screamed,
all the times i closed my eyes hoped one day id be free.

I remember all the times you told me,
all the times i wasnt worth a thing and never would be.

I remember all the times you looked away,
all the times you said you hated me.

I remember all the times you did those things to me,
all the times you hit,blamed,yelled, and lied to me.

I remember all the times i tried to tell myself,
all the times i didnt care anymore.

I remember all the times i lied to myself,
all the times i said it was my fault for what happened.

I remember all the times, and now,
all the times, dont matter anymore.

All the times are going to be over,
even though ill always remember,

its ok now. im free.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

To my parents.

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MatthewWayne's picture

Wonderful!! as I said before,

Wonderful!! as I said before, time to spread your wings and fly! :)


"I am my own sort of strange, a supernova of madness and brillance. Forced to share the same space and time. Sane enough to not be seen, yet not crazy enough to be heard." -- Matthew Wayne