Past heartbreak, has confused me.

My mind is so confused,
from the late night talk with you.

You desided to tell the truth,
desided to tell me how you felt.

I dont know what to do,
i dont know what to say,
when my heart and mind are screaming-
two entirely differant things!

They are screaming so loadly, i dont know which
one it is that im hearing.

I hear i cant belive this, why tell me now?
Why say these, things, when im finally done healing.
Why do you want to hurt me over again?
Why get inside my head again?

I hear omg he still loves me, but what is it that i feel?
I still enjoy his company, i still laugh at his jokes, i still smile
when he talks, and i still love his personality.
He is strong , and getting clean.
He is turning into the guy, i once feel in love with,
a sober, sweet, completely one of a kind, type of guy,
that once told me i was his life.
THat w/o me, he would surely die, that i was the one keeping him alive.
He is turning into the guy, that was just like me, in every crazy way.
The one who could finish my sentences, the one who could, make me laugh,
the one that could tell if i was sad, even over the phone or text messages.
THe one that got mad, only when i said i was stuppied, the one that shot me like cupied,
he shot me, with his posionous, love arrow.
IT went through my heart, and i left it there to stay, then one day,
he ripped it all away, letting me bleed out that day.

He is turning his life around, im seeing the old guy i knew again,
but i cant be with him.
Im soo sorry, i cant be with you.

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the eternal battle of heart

the eternal battle of heart and mind. he may be what he was b4 but that means that he will do the same if he's the same as he once was. he needs to be independant, not needing u everytime to kiss his booboos when he fall, your not his mom. nice free write tho.