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You!
YOU!
i thought we were friends
but you’re not fazed by the fact
that i’m not talking to you.
You don’t even care to find out WHY.
You’re too interested in your “new” friends.
YOU!
What happened between us?
i thought we had something.
One minute, we’re close and talk everyday,
the next, i never hear from you
without a reason WHY.
YOU!
It’s your duty to love me,
not to tell me to FUCK OFF
and treat me like a kid when i’m not.
Can’t you let me decide for myself?
This is WHY i hate you.
YOU!
Hurt me but care
only for your feelings
and not mine.
WHY?
It is not my duty to love you (love is a choice and is not a duty), but I do because you are my daughter - it is a feeling I have felt from the day I was told I was pregnant with you. I will love you to the day I die.
My "new" friends will never replace you, because you are and always will be the most important person in my life. You are not there to see how much Falkie and I miss you. You do not know how much it kills me daily not to speak to you or see you.
We did have something between us but your anger and resentment towards me for what I did, put the barrier between us. I too am entitled to a life and happiness and want the same thing for you. By doing what I did you no longer have to put up with the "nonsense" that you describe in your poem "Distrupted Life". Respect is a two way street and if you want to act like a child you will be treated like a child. You are very wrong when you say that yor feelings are not important. Can I ask if you have ever considered mine.
I have read Joe White-eagle's poem "Forgivness" and I know you have to (I read your critique). I also know that you hold Joe in high esteem. Joe's poem has a lot of truths in it and I ask you to please go and read it again.
I read your poetry and I cry for you for the pain, anger, hurt, resentment and unforgivness that you express. At the same time I feel immensly proud of you at the amazing talent before me and awaremess to life. Mom