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Addiction
Addiction
The need for my brain to be tricked.
The desire to fulfill an emotion.
It is always the same.
I always revert back.
Joy
Anger
Frustration
Puzzling
Boredom
They all mean the same thing to me.
It numbs the brain and changes the emotion
I feel guilt after.
All emotions lead to guilt.
I know how to move on after guilt.
I cope with guilt.
Other emotions are Unknown for me.
I accept failure
I thrive in failure
I am my best in failure.
I tell my self what can I do without the addiction
Could I be better?
Could I do more?
What if I am better with my addiction?
I drives me to do better.
15 years of mind tricks.
15 years of fighting, winning and losing.
I am still me, but with a crutch.
Will the crutch ever go away.
Can I fight and win?
I hate it with guilt
I love it with all other emotions.
I have created a bad world for me.
This was written in guilt...
1 hour, 5 hours, 2 days , 7 days, 1 month, 2years.
I will forget and addict.
My brain is processed.
Anger
Joy
Frustration
Boredom
Puzzling
More and more....
Wow
the emotions captured in here is very sad to me but beautifully captured in words and typed!