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I fall for anything that pretends to care.

I realize with every choice I make,

I leave myself even more bare.

First I open up,

Then I start to smile.

I feel the all consuming love in my heart,

Like that of a child.

One that has been loved and made to feel safe,

Who's innocence is still in tact and didn't get touched at a tender age.

Then completely being myself,

Trusting you'll to do the same,

Showing my scars,

And forgetting the lessons of my pain.

I stand naked before you,

While you're fully clothed,

Starving for love urning for a hug.

Desperately searching for anyone to fill the hole,

Of the abandoned little girl who lost her soul.

I look to my family with no avail.

I search for a man and dishonor myself.

I desecrate my body everyday,

It doesn't work but I starve myself anyway.

I put on my makeup to cover my broken skin,

hoping you at least think i'm pretty because I can't get thin.

I stay just outside the lines,

Afraid to break free,

All in hopes you might actually love me.

I take the pills you prescribe to me, numbing my being,

Then just maybe you won't call me crazy.

I hold back my tears when I want to cry,

I hold back joy when I feel it inside.

I shove down my anger until it explodes,

Then I feel guilty and nobody knows.

I allow my family to degrade me every day,

Because I don't feel good enough for them anyway.

I like who I really am but I change it all, 

Choosing to feed in to your fixed beleifs,

And to live in a world that to me feels so false.

I get that the hole,

I've been searching to fill,

Can only be filled with Love for myself. 

From this moment on I choose out of your world,

And back home into mine where I belong.

I want to be free to be who I am,

Create magic, and be my own best friend.

Turning this world as you know it upside down,

So my feet no longer hold the energy of my crown.

Where this worlds caotic hatred can't make a sound.

Where I can receive love that is truly profound.