EMPTY COTTAGE

Judith took me
to the derelict cottage
just off the wood
in the Easter recess

 

from school
she opened up
the back door
and into the kitchen

 

with its smell
of damp and decay
it's been empty for years
she said

 

my sister and I
used to come here
and pretend
it was our own cottage

 

smells horrible
I said
ignore the smell
she said

 

pretend it's our
own cottage
and we have
just moved in

 

after marrying
when did we marry?
I asked
after we left school

 

she said
smiling
she walked into
a larger room

 

with wide windows
looking out
onto a large
overgrown garden

 

we could grow
some of our own food
she said
looking out

 

the window
I looked at
the hanging wallpaper
and a damp patch

 

on the ceiling
and our children
could play out there
she said

 

what children?  I asked
when did they come along?
after we married
she said

 

I don't remember
I said smiling
you will
if you pretend better

 

she said
moving through
to another room
at the front

 

I noticed a space
where a picture
must have hung
because it was cleaner

 

than the rest
of the wall
I like this room
she said

 

this is where we will sit
and have our TV
and radio
and the children

 

can sit with us
and we can cuddle them
I nodded playing along
let me show you upstairs

 

to the bedrooms
she said
so I followed her
up the creaky stairs

 

her green skirt
swaying as she walked
three bedrooms
she said

 

one for us
one for our boys
and one for our girls
she stood

 

in the front bedroom
looking out
over an untidy hedge
onto the road

 

this is our bedroom
she said
turning around
looking at it all

 

our bed can go there
she said
pointing to a wall
on the left

 

and we can have
a dressing table
and dresser
the room was empty

 

and smelt
over by the right wall
was a pile of shit
some one's been here

 

and dumped
I said
probably some tramp
or hobo

 

she looked
at the shit
and said
who's dumped

 

in our bedroom?
I laughed
it isn't our room yet
pretend

 

she said
I pretended
the shit wasn't there
and we went

 

into the other bedrooms
and she said
this was where
such and such

 

will be
and out of the window
the overgrown garden
seemed vast

 

with an apple orchard
to the left
she touched my hand
and squeezed it

 

we will be happy here
she said
I looked about
the room years after  

 

the cottage smelt ranker
and she was dead.

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