From Scientist to Sonnet Sleuth: Why I Left Academia to Reclaim My Love for Literature

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Following my car accident, whilst I was still in the process of my eight-year rehabilitation, I decided it was best for me to return to school, which I did via adult education. I told myself and others at the time that the reason for this was that I knew my old career was over, and I had no interest in becoming a cabinetmaker. According to my occupational therapist, a cabinet maker was the only job option for people in a wheelchair. One of my teachers and mentors later revealed to me that “I was always going to return to study and go to university”.

 

For most of my life until then, I had been told I was stupid and would never achieve anything. If there were moments of encouragement, they were drowned out by all the negative comments. This is yet another major factor behind my decision to leave academia and start my tutoring company. I did not want to see another child battling that sort of negativity. I wanted to be the person that, had I known they existed when I was young, I’d have wanted by my side. For them to have the patience, empathy and insight to help me on my way.

 

A Fork in the Road: Literature and Science

 

So, back to adult education and studying literature. English literature always came quickly to me. It mattered not if it was poetry, a novel or a film. Whilst I chose it as a subject to increase my ATAR (alternatively insert relevant score here), it was also to help ease myself back into study and have some fun. This subject, in particular, laid the foundation of my newfound confidence in knowing I wasn’t the idiot I’d been accused of my whole life (despite autism being relatively well documented even back then), that I was actually capable of studying and, perhaps, even going on to university. I consistently received A+'s for all my assignments and assessments. This helped counter the lower grades I received in other STEM subjects I had not previously taken. When I finally applied for university degrees and scholarships, my teacher and mentor implored me to “Go to university and study Literature and be BRILLIANT!” As you may have already guessed, I trepidaciously dismissed her advice and followed my heart by applying primarily for degrees in animal and veterinary science. There was a double Arts/Science application, but it was around pick five.

 

Navigating Academia as a Disabled, Neurodivergent Student

 

I received a first-round pick for my second choice (BSc. Animal Science), followed by a scholarship. On the day I visited the Open Day, I was offered discounted private student accommodation. It was a straightforward decision. My first year of university was quite challenging. I had moved state, I knew no one there, and I felt isolated and exposed as a mature-aged disabled student. However, as I progressed, I quickly realised that those subjects I had thought so complex and unfamiliar were not so scary. I received first-class honours, which opened the entire academic world to me!

 


Reclaiming My Work, Finding My Purpose

 


That was then, this is now.

 


Recently, it has come to my attention that much of my intellectual property, including poetry from the 1980s and my school work from my Year 11 English literature class, has been stolen and plagiarised completely, unadulterated, in other people’s undergraduate and master's theses. Many of these theses were published recently, which begs the question of why the university wasn’t using plagiarism detection to check them.

 

Furthermore, I have found some to be profiting from my work by selling it to companies like Barnes & Noble (Bartleby) and others.

 

Conclusion

 

Admittedly, I am partially to blame. I uploaded my work (with references removed to try to deter potential theft) to a public poetry website. My reasons for this were to spread my love of English literature and, perchance, inspire young minds to appreciate it as much as I do.

 

As that is still my goal, I will now post a series of analyses and critiques of some of my favourite poems. Including one I hate to love, but I can’t help myself despite its refreshing honesty. I truly hope you enjoy reading them as much as I enjoyed writing them. Hopefully, though, you may wish to join me on this exploration and discussion on this beautiful art form. 

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What a moving and courageous

What a moving and courageous piece. This reads like the unfolding of a soul reclaiming its voice after being silenced, stifled, and sidelined for far too long. The narrative arc; from trauma and exclusion to triumph, purpose, and reinvention, is deeply affecting. Your journey is profoundly inspiring and a quiet triumph over trauma, misjudgment, and invisibility. The decision to return to study, not just as necessity but as a reclaiming of self-worth, is courageous. You didn’t just rebuild—you rewrote the narrative entirely. What strikes me most is your purpose: to become the guide you never had. You chose to break a cycle of exclusion by opening doors for others. That kind of empathy-led ambition is powerful. Your path through academia as a mature-aged, disabled student couldn’t have been easy. And yet, you excelled. You challenged expectations, first others’, then your own. That someone could steal your early work after all this, is devastating. But your response, to create more, share more, and still teach speaks of your character and integrity. The literary world gains something rare in your return: experience shaped by persistence, a voice sharpened by adversity, and a mission driven by compassion. I can’t wait to see the poetry and insight you share next. They won’t just inform—they’ll continue to inspire.


here is poetry that doesn't always conform

galateus, arkayye, arqios,arquious, crypticbard, excalibard, wordweaver

cynosure's picture

Overwhelmed

Dear redbrick,

 

I admit I saw the notification when I went to bed last night. Your words honestly moved me more than I can say, in the best way. However, as you can probably appreciate, it is not without uneasiness and feeling unworthy.

 

 

I had to read your response multiple times, needing some time to absorb it and appreciate your kindness and understanding. Your reflection feels like a gentle yet powerful acknowledgment of my journey, and I am genuinely touched by the compassion and empathy you shared. It’s rare to find someone who not only understands the challenges I’ve faced but also has a deep understanding of what it has taken to move on and change the narrative.

 

 

So again I would thank you for such a heartfelt message — it made me pause, feel comforted, and gave me a renewed sense of purpose and responsibility. I genuinely appreciate your support and look forward to sharing more as I continue. I have posted a further reread of Eliot’s Love Song in case you missed it. 

 

With gratitude



cynosure (David W) 


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