This Man I Call Mine



This man I call mine

He don’t act right

He is gone all day

And doesn’t come home at night

When he finally comes home

I ask him where did he go

He tells me with his boys

Should I believe him? I don’t know

I love him so much

I can’t even lie

Without his thuggin ass

I think I would die

I let him do what he wants

I usually don’t care

But the thoughts in my head

Are too much for me to bear

I say to myself

Girl- just let it go

But regardless of what my head says

My heart still tells me no

I look deep in myself

And I like what I see

I’m a good ass woman

A good wife to be

I cook and I clean

I don’t cheat, I don’t lie

So why does this man

Wanna make me cry?

I know I could make someone happy

He treats me like dirt

I wish I could leave

I hate the way I hurt

I go to the club

Other men be stalkin

But I don’t even look back

I just keep on walkin

I am beginning to hate

What I have loved from the start

I’ve loved him for years

And he has my heart

One day, I say

I will leave and be gone

But I have to keep waiting

Til my heart becomes strong

I don’t like to think

Of my life without Dave

But I am tired and depressed

I feel like his slave

I do all I can

To make this go right

But he still wants to yell

Argue, fuss, and fight



Maybe one day

He’ll come back to me

Maybe he’ll realize

Maybe he’ll see

That what he has done

Is broken me down

He’s kicked in my heart

And left it on the ground

“You don’t deserve this”

My heart says to me

“Run as fast as you can

You’ll be better off you’ll see”

I have tried to run

But my feet just won’t go

My head tells me yes

My heart tells me no

One day I’ll be strong

I’ll be able to leave

But for now, it’ll be fine

I’ll make myself believe

My life is ok

If I ignore all this shit

I mean I’m better off than some

My man doesn’t hit!

But, he might as well

It feels just the same

I may not have the bruises

But I still have the pain

Once school is done

I promise I’ll be gone

But I’m afraid to be lonely

I don’t want to be alone

I need all the comfort

And the kisses and hugs

The shit I aint never found

From the gangstas and thugs

Since I was eleven

I knew Dave was the one

When I was 16

I had him and got sprung

Now here I am

In this bed torn apart

He just walked out the door

Come back- you have my heart!


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