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Born, a brown eyed, poetic princess

To a king and queen

Ready for 100 percent of their attention

Love filled the home like smoke in a hot-boxed Honda

Business trips brought gifts to baby

But took daddy away from daddy’s little girl

Hello Kitty kept her happy til the next time

Enter baby #2 (not me)

Curly head…hazel eyes.

A beauty in a chubby package

Unplanned but accepted

Business trip

To a citrus city…was a bar on the schedule?

Daddy met step-mommy at a bar

See? It does work! It can happen

Brown eyed princess’ life is flipped

Mommy is crying

Hazel eyes is oblivious

Pigeon-toed walking

Princess is getting angry

He’s gone and princess has lost her soul



Two times a month at daddy’s is Princess’ retreat

She-ra dolls line the closet

Clothes we can’t take home

Step mommy is no longer a secret

No longer a sachet with an embroidered love note

She smells pretty and she dresses nice

The cat hates kids and the hisses burn like hot bacon grease

Princess and Hazel eyes play in the dark

It’s how they survive

Loneliness

Mommy seems miles and days away



Trips to far away places

And exciting gifts

Daddy wants to make us happy

But Princess can’t sleep while daddy and step mommy are

Fucking

In the room down the hall

The bed next to us in the motel

The lower bunk in the bunk bed



By now boys are taking over princess’ mind

She lets them touch her in places

Only she knows about

From the magazines daddy has beside his bed

She reaches out but no one grabs hold

So she continues to be consumed

With thoughts of Jay, Fred and all the other black boys on 33rd street

Playing hide and go get it at Tyeann’s house

Beatin boys with bike pedals

Waiting for David to get out of jail

Mommy is ill

Wondering what happened to her princess

Sending her to therapists

Analyzing her every word

Medication? Prozac? 12 years old? Do they actually do that?

Mommy listens to phone calls

Questions everything

Reads letters

Keeps poems and misinterprets them

Reads diaries

Calls princess names

Slut

Whore

Brat

Bitch

Satan

We could go on

The many days princess cried and hit and kicked

All for daddy

No one seems to understand

So why didn’t he come?

Why was the only time he came

To pry Princess’ hands from the leg of the bed

Yelling- “I’ll break your arm if I have to!”

And then he was gone



Summer before 7th grade

Disappointment

Killed Princess’ will to go on and proceed

Traumatized her in a silly way

But he left her hangin

So I, Princess, hated him

Visits became less

Shorter

And the relationship blossomed because princess was still

Daddy’s little girl



Now she’s sexin

With the white crip named Aaron

Watch out now!

Mommy’s reading the diary

She knows about her 14-year-old princess

Settin off alarms at Montrelle’s

Sneakin boys in the house

She knows about them doin 69 while listenin to 2pac and SWV

Mommy’s too sick to know where brown eyes is at all time anyway

Gift of gab

Baby girl can talk her way out of groundation

And Aaron-deprivation

Now princess is taken advantage of

But because of her record

This situation is misconstrued

She soon becomes Daddy’s little girl again

Sent to his dungeon…but is treated

Like a princess

He showers her with gifts and looks beyond her mistakes

Step-mommy is her new shopping partner

Then all hell breaks loose

14-year-old princess? Pregnant?

How could this happen?

Was this because they would drop her off at William’s dark house?

And pick her up after 10?

Daddy becomes distant.

He weeps daily

He can no longer look in the brown eyes of

His princess

Brown eyes, in pain and missing daddy’s love

Wants it all back

So she disconnects her emotions and takes a trip

They erase the mistakes and all is well

30 minutes later they have McDonald’s and princess is once again given gifts

All in one day

Pain dominates her heart

She looks for an escape

She kills her daddy’s trust and he let’s her go

They die in each other’s brown eyes



Princess finds powder and puts it in her nose

And she finds a new way to get money and a ride to school

Being pinned down isn’t rape and waking up to him on top of you isn’t rape

Now princess has a new seed growing

This one will blossom into a beautiful rose

Hayden

March 9, 1995

11:32 am

Princess’ 16-year-old life changed

Laying next to her is her prince

She is now a queen

He is light caramel complected

With curly black locks

Outstretched arms and 10 toes

He is beauty and she is naïve to the transformation of her young life

Her body is imperfection

She now carries a diaper bag as a backpack to school

Her books fit perfectly into the basket in the stroller

10th grader on Welfare

Foodstampin her lunches

You go girl!

Baby daddy, age 31?

Incarcerated

Lewd & lascivious is he

He will never know his son…because he is no daddy



Prince charming comes in, riding his white horse

With his turq rag hanging from his back pocket

Flapping in the wind

His fingers twisted in the middle

His 10 or so ponytails turned her on

And his tightly creased Dickies were impeccable

His stories of YA entertained her

She was gonna save him

And he was gonna change her

Baby Hayden knows prince charming as daddy

Sitting in the back seat lip-syncing “I once knew a trick named Annie Mae

Oooooooooh”

If only we were never dumb as children

Fights and break ups persist

Hayden clings to grandma while brown eyes clings to prince charming

Confusion keeps her at ease now

Pain is her drug of choice

She doesn’t need friends!

She’s got her man

He’ll fight back when she hits him like a dude

And when they fuck

It’s like heaven if there is one

They move up

He moves out

He gets locked up

She gets knocked down

She moves up

She kicks him out

He moves in

He finds his true love

He moves out



Princess dies and there she is

Poetry becomes her obsession

She can’t stop writing

So much to say

So little time

“To all the men I’ve loved before”

Looking in to the darkness for light

She searches to find love in the same place her daddy found step mommy

Truth be told- it can happen

True love story!

20 years strong and they still be fuckin…I think

Princess is not oblivious…she’s only stubborn

Danny knocks on her hard head

LJ tells her bout herself

Rachel just laughs and pretends it’s not wrong

Mommy just shakes her head and acts as if she doesn’t see

Hayden still wants a daddy

To teach him how to ball

To help him get past the 4th level

To take to show and tell

Princess just wants to make him happy

And she just wants to be happy

In this death sentence…