Addiction and Depression

Addiction and depression

Took them both away

Their cry out for help

In a non verbal way

We will never understand

Why they did what they did

A lonely, lost mother?

A sad, hurt kid?

The only way they knew

They numbed away their pain

Doing what it took

To try and feel sane

I distanced myself

From all the drama

Not knowing so soon I'd lose

My niece and my momma

Expecting a tomorrow

Because of that

I have so much sorrow

Sarina

I miss your bright smile

And your joyful hugs

A child with so much care

In return to receive a shrug

Depression got the best

Of your joyful soul

You were left broken

No longer feeling whole

So many questions to ask

What happened and why?

And the empty feeling of knowing

I never got to say goodbye

Mom

I always hear that silly

Laugh with the snort

I'll always wonder why

You cut your life short

I know its obvious

As a child I felt betrayed

I never understood

Why you didn't stay

The choices that you made

Tore us apart

How could my mother

Shred my teenage heart?

It took a couple years

To realize you were sick

And to think al those years

I was the biggest prick

How could I think

That choice was so wise?

And now it's to late

To try to apologize

Author's Notes/Comments: 

R.I.P Sarina 2/13/01-9/18/14

R.I.P mom 2/15/62-2/9/14

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You Stay Strong

My heart is with you.

KS

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Thank you :/

Thank you :/