suicide gone-

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am i your hero now?

was i your martyr, ever?

i chose the way i did

and now,

it doesn't matter.

I'm still gone, your still hurt

words don't fill the empty space i left

there is no, rest in peace,

for me.

if you knew, even you

could not have turned me.

is that what you want to hear?

the truth?

that i was scared to face myself

but i would have let you,

i prepared a fate, and dealt with it.

your pain is all so wasted

as you, for me, are taken, for granted.

in this tasteless attempt

to reconcile,

your hurt, with my reasons

i hope you think me selfish,

i think you know me, now

the meanings that you're searching,

are short of me, unfound.

and i am no longer worthy,

i killed myself

i chose that way,

and now

it's too late,

i am a suicide gone.

life to me meant nothing,

i turned and walked away

and it's too late for sorry,

as you're the one that's paying

with sorrow at my grave.

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Carissa Janelle's picture

Dear Sir,

You have a magnificent talent.
I can really relate to a lot of what you write.
This piece inparticular.
Keep it up!

~CJ~

Athalia Lystra's picture

At first i thought this was an optimistic piece, but as i read on i learned differently...boy did i ever. But the one thing i like about intelligent poetry is that it is not obvious, the ablilty to arise an emotion, and bring about the brutal reality.
You did just that!

Mélissa Chrétien's picture

I know what you mean by that, i feel that way to sometimes!
You know that every poet has someday wrote something like
this, in there life!

Melissa, your the best

Oracle Angel's picture

This sounds very familiar. ...as only i know the true suicide king... once said by a great author unknown. You have serious undertones to your impecable word usage. love me