Witnessing pain and light inside

I settle into the darkness

black as coal

I want to run, but the greater part of me knows

I am being formed into a diamond.

No hand to hold onto,

no mercy.

I am my own compassion,

as my guardian angels surround me.

I see flashes of lights.

The vision shifts in my eyes.

I have no need to see in 3D

the bullshit in this reality.

Yet I know being present is important

yet I know that being here now is important

yet I know that being grounded is important.

I want to drift off to where everything is okay

Where I can feel God in play

I need to get out of this place

this state

in my mind

and find

once again...

the divine.


With tears in my eyes, I feel adrenalin flow blood throughout my body

I am shaking

and tears from each eye

fall fast

perfectly in synch.

They fall and fill my chest

I do not try to wipe them away.


Instead I begin to meditate.

Tears are still falling

I am observing and witnessing my body

My personality

and the emotions surging.

I know that I am not these things.

These illusions and the problems they bring.

I am the eternal being

smiling from inside


simply being.


Then, I can be here now.

I am the sunshine observing the clouds.

I do not dislike the rain

and I do not try to make the clouds go away.

I witness and observe without judgement.

I let the rain soak me head to toe.

I learn to dance in this rain.


I then put my hands on my belly.

5 months pregnant, I say

"We are spirit"

I remind myself that I am never alone.

I feel a love deeper than anything I've known.

I know it will be alright

even when the emotions take me for a ride.


I know that love is flooding my life.

Of course,

for I can feel this shining


light inside.


Author's Notes/Comments: 

observing emotions. LOVE.

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Amazing things enlighten in

Amazing things enlighten in meditation... I totally LOVE this write!!!!


...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "