Gift or Curse

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Things by the minute just keeping getting worse.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Which one is last, which one comes first?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Is heavy set out on one's brain. Have I wondrous thoughts, could they both be used in vain?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Which one should the brain devour? While things consume someone's brain just about every ungodly hour?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Which runs love's curse? Which one causes pain and remorse?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? What shall I say they both mean? Is it to be somewhat remarkable and somewhat keen?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Does either one cause people to resort to plundering having others somehow wondering?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Are they something a male possesses that somewhat makes him mannish? Does the result of this include a female somehow becoming blandished?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Are they what they may really may seem? Do they often make a righteous person or any person for that matter blaspheme?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Does either leave one's heart so vulnerable and frail?  Leaving them to not speak of what hopefully they should tell.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Which one brings tears to a lover's eyes, beginning fulfillment to the partner's lies.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? The gift for me would be that he and me (pause) have a sudden chance of fortuity.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? The curse which cometh from the gift would be....

...To never have him to hear my sudden wants, to hear my sudden plea.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Cursive for me it is for him to not know how my love is twenty times the four fold.

For him to not know it is him I now eternally for the rest of my life seek to want and hold

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Is it a curse? Is my heart doomed to shame? Will I loose all sense, all sense to the meaning of my name?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? It's a gift for him to bring my heart such unimaginable glee.

Yet I fully don't understand what's happening to me.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Is it a gift or curse to give my worthiest love to thee?

. Hoping that one day it would be me he'd finally see.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Does either make me a subject to the word fool?

. Simply because I mostly daydream about him constantly in school?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Do both make what I'm saying unreal?

. Just because you think there's something unrealistic about the way I feel?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Gift or curse is it for me to vainly despair to the heavens above to stop this sudden desire for his love?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? For me to love this boy who possesses...

... Possesses all my futuristic joy.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? For me to want to say to him so boldly " I Love you."

Knowing these words apply, knowing these words will always be true.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Is it for me to fall for a boy who towards me is very entice or am I simply paying love's critical price?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Is it for him to have such a becoming smile that matches his appealing characteristic of being beguile?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? I have to decide...

...whether it isn't or is done with great pride.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Lord I'm asking you to help me seize...

. Seize the one who truly matters the most to me please.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Is it for me to want to have romance?

. When he suddenly looks at me with that mutualistic glance?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? For me so badly to want him to be the only one that goes within me so deep, to a wake with him beside me in a comfortable sleep?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? To have him as the dominant one on my hearts list?

Or to keep it secretive now that it’s partly in the midst?

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? For me wanting this boy to be all mine? But who could blame me he is uniquely divine.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? He's in my lungs, my heart, my mind he's even in the air. But in my heart, he'll always remain there.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Should I dump this feeling or should I still care or ask myself "To myself am I being fair?"

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? Remember my love for you always came first whether situations were for better or worse.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? For you to be leaving so suddenly from within the class of '03?

But I pray to the lord keep you safe while I pray on bending knee.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? You'll always be within my heart.

It's been that way from the very start.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? All you got to do is say yes, don't deny what you feel. Let me undress ya baby open up ya mind and just rest. I'm about to let you know you've been my best.

Gift or curse? Gift or curse? It was a gift because there was a bond that began to form...

. When you suddenly helped me to weather what seemed to be an unstoppable storm.

In conclusion I say you are both. You've brought both joy and sorrow...

. Leaving me to anticipate the unborn morrow.

Although you're not perfect and no one is you'll stay my love and friend.

                          Holla if ya need a hand.  

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This poem is continous to the present poem entitled "Became."

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