Need Air .

A knife in the heart will be less painful

Flame piercing my skin will be hurt less 

The rage inside me is yours,

So many tears and hatred filled my soul

 

you dont care bout it, of course!

I remain in the dark, hoping

find the light !!

at the slightest movement I do to save myself

You pulls on the chain tied around my neck

and brings me back to the hard reality.

 

Without dreams or real ambition .

A soldier stripped ..

Whose scars bleed ..

 

My thoughts jostle...

My body goes automatic mode ..

Work hard to survive another day.

 

My future scares me ..

this is not what I want ..

this is not what I deserved ..

 

after a life of misery ..

Do I have the right to happiness, too ?!

 

if i have to join the stars to be happy ..

I will gladly dance with the blades ..

Except that my common sense tells me it'll be too easy ..

I must give a chance to life..

 

My heart is confused ..

He does not know what he wants ..

Its Normal i guess, with all this hate.

I have the impression not even control it..

the most at all times ..

I'm afraid Of love

i must  protect myself!

 

I cannot remember the last

times I felt the butterflies in my

stomach ..

goosebumps on my body when

a hand touches my neck ..

The indomitable beat of my heart in contact with soft lips

on mine ..

 

Psychological control you have over me is killing me

gradually ..

I must look for the exit door ..

I have the impression of suffocating ..

I need air.

 

I need to find the woman I was.

Hoping she still exists.

 

 

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KindredSpirit's picture

I sense the crush

On you; like a weight that

 You need to get out under from

K.S.

Before it crushes you

Blue-Flower's picture

Thanks for reading .

Thanks for reading . Sometimes u just got to vent out :p