just blah day

I cant seem to escape the feeling of being lost, I've been a single mom for 7 years and I've been trying to make our lives better for most of the time... The problem is there doesnt seem to be a solution right now for me, everytime I figure one thing out I hit a wall with another.

Really the only barrier I have is the kids, but they are also the reason I want a better life, I want them to have the best life I can provide! Still thats confusing, I can work more and pay out for daycare and really not make anymore money than I make right now and if I work more we will have less time together which means less time to help them with school which I already suck at. I feel so much like a failure as a mother I canstantly believe they deserve better than me. 

 

I need to figure out how to let go, how to allow myself to feel the way I do and accept that its okay. I have a lot of really great things in my life and I remind myself constantly but then I feel guilty for feeling upset with my life at all there are tons of people who have far less in this world than I do. 

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word_man's picture

time with your children will

time with your children will become the most rewarding


ron parrish

georgeschaefer's picture

Blah days are okay and so are

Blah days are okay and so are blah weeks.  Hopefully you can avoid blah years and blah decades.  nice poem.