Distant Memory

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A Beautiful Life

You brought back the childhood dreams
Of wanting to visit the city that never sleeps.
Even I can't sleep because it won't go away.
The New York boy that forever changed me...

Me and him had so much in common,
Even though we were a long distance apart.
The first time I've ever exposed myself
Was when we started dating during December.

I remember I'd always felt cold then,
But I chose to ignore the inner voice.
Lust found a way to reach to my life
And it had a lot of fun playing with my feelings.

His face still remains a memory in my heart
With his smile I still giggle happily about.
The last snow melted away after breaking up
And I was left all alone to see the new sunlight.

Hatred and bitterness towards him grew,
Fueling the desire to connect my fist to his face.
I try to forget his nickname by kicking pigeons.
At least his friend treated me more right.

And yet, I still kinda miss you, Nathan...
You were the first real boyfriend to me.
We had a lot of good and bad times together,
So I hope you're having it better with your girlfriend.

The New York boy has finally gone to sleep,
But the distant memory will always be with me.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

1/6/2013

I wrote this as something that I wanna get out of my mind. This is about my second ex boyfriend whom I dated for about a month. He was the first real boyfriend I ever had and we had a lot of memories together, but we broke up because the long distance thing wasn't working out too well. And now he's just a memory to me because we don't talk anymore.

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