My Problems, My Consequences

No, there won't be any more blood
Coming from my newly clean wrists.
This is something I must decide
Without thinking about a razor blade.

And as I face the hands of life,
My breath becomes bipolar from time to time.
I can't breathe normally at once.
Another moment, I'm hyperventilating violently.

Life will be beautiful as I knew it
Once my blood flushes out like bloodshed.
Someone, please rip out my curse of a woman
If my shame becomes alive within me!

Suicide, such a wonderful thing to give a try at,
Only when something like this will happen.
I always hold a blade and tell myself silently,
"Don't worry, you're not pregnant..."

Voices wander within my head in chaos.
I'm surprised that I didn't have any headaches.
My blood spills from my back from my hands
Because it's the only thing I can hide from everyone.

However, I brought him into this...
Everything was my fault to begin with.
I'll deal with my problems and consequences in one way;
Living.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

9/18/2012

Wrote this when I was scared I was pregnant. Turns out that I wasn't because I got my period like 2 weeks after being late.

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