Without Her

Too many years gone by
Too many nights unspent
Embracing each other
Instead our existence we lament
Throwing about our hatred
Throwing about our tears
Always in the end though
We utilize each others fears
Fighting to be superior
Fighting to be right
With every word of doubt
We cast our hearts into the night
Gone beyond the darkness
Beyond the stepping line
I race into the wilderness
For it is our love I seek to find
Amounting against the odds
Overcoming the doubt
You still see me with those eyes
Hating me with every shroud
I no longer want the pain
Or the obscenity of heartbreak
After so long in the wilderness
I doubt the strength my heart can take
As I fall to the ground
Gathering my last few breaths
I try to remember your smile
To comfort my death
A beautiful soul I saw in you
But your words tell me that we are through
It drains the strength from me
Tell me this is not you
We laugh, we cry
We fight, and we love
A true testament that after all these years
That through anything
I do not want to watch you from above
My place is here
With the love of my life
And the life you have created
Two souls that strengthen me
Always in my heart you'll forever be
So heed my words and to you I say
Do not let go of love this fine day
Because I am human, and deeply flawed
I was going crazy without you
Feeling my soul being gnawed
Tugged, pulled, and ripped in every direction
Only the beautiful light of your soul
Can offer me protection
I beg you to stay with me through thick and thin
Because only one name means the world to me
And her name is Lynn.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Written for my beautiful girlfriend.  We are going through some rough times at the time of this writing, but I wrote this in the hopes that when she reads it, she will always remember how much I love her.  And hope she realizes how much I need her in my life.  10 years at this point, and I can only learn to love her more.  Lynn & Joe 6-10-03   I love you babe, with all my heart.

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